I'm still here..and going back under

You know what? I am NOT going to write posts about how I know I need to update and I promise I will and yada yada. It never works out.

I have a few goals for 2013 and one is keeping up with both of my blogs.I have so much to share with you guys!

had my two year post op appt finally.

 I had to postpone because I had just had my tummy tuck and wasn't gonna crawl into the bariatric office!

got scolded for being dehydrated which I have been since day one :(  

 Need to keep up better with my supplements and am waiting to hear labs. Crossing my fingers.

had to go in for an ultrasound as a result of my tummy tuck


Long story short? No time for whining and crying. I have done too much of that.

Basically I have to go back under.

I started noticing about a month ago that my tummy looked more rounder than usual at the end of the day. Yes swelling is till happening with me and will for along time. But I was waking up flat and then a little more rounded even in the morning.

Remember I basically had pneumonia after my tummy tuck? Well the violent coughing that went along with it damaged my muscles.

It looks like I popped some of my stitches and it resulted in a muscle repair failure. My muscles are killing me and I just got over a bad case of bronchitis so that really jacked me up too.

So I decided to go back under because well...I want the results I deserve. I am so scared about doing it since i said I would never ever do this again.

But who get a tummy tuck and then have to still hold their tummy in? Not me!!

I am not mentally ready for it so the end of March it is.

I told her I needed to by then because dangit we have a trip to Disneyland in May and no tummy tuck is stopping me from going!

So I have been hiding under a rock going through a hard time and some mild depression must have kicked in because it was affecting how I ate, how I exercised and how I was around everyone.

I need to do this surgery and put this all behind me ya know?

SO I plan of documenting this because no one really talks about it.

So hope to see you soon!!

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xo