I'm nearing the year mark and I am struggling. You would think that all the hell I went through after my surgery would make me wanna work harder getting this weight off. Nope.
I was a binge eater before surgery and guess what..still am.
I am so happy with the weight I lost so far and am wondering if I am just comfortable at this weight and mentally wanna give up? I know I can keep going. I wanna keep going. But I'm stuck.
I have been grazing and not on the greatest foods. Lacking protein again, hair falling out in bunches still. I am still very anemic and that is another cause and will be on strong doses of iron until menopause. Joy.
Little bites here and there are slowing my weight loss. I'm still losing but veeerrryyyyy slowly.
I'm mad. I'm disappointed in myself which makes the evil wheel turn and then I go to food like I did when I was fat.
I still have no hunger but my head is fighting me for some reason. It is begging me to go get something and I listen to it!!!!! UUUGGHH!
Pity party for one over here.
I keep saying I will start over tomorrow. I last until 3-4 pm when something in me gravitates towards the cupboards. The only thing saving me is that I can only eat small portions but then it adds up.
Needed to vent. Needed to yell. Beat myself up.
Thanks for listening.
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xo
What about making things for yourself in advance...things you KNOW you can eat that you like? Protein bars? I know I'm a newbie, and head hunger has really gotten me from time to time here. Is there anything I can do to help you? Scream really loud in your ear? LOL
ReplyDeleteI am right there with you! I've been grazing out of boredom at work and also on the weekends and I believe that is why my weight has stalled. Well that and I have limited exercise. I do notice that most days when I weigh my food out and count my protein I do so much better. I'm getting to the point where I'm not letting crap in my house anymore.
ReplyDeleteI have been grazing too! UGH! Let's all punch each other in the face!
ReplyDeletexo is all I have. Email me if you want to eat? (jenny.z.larson@gmail.com)