time flies when you're not having fun

I passed the 4 month part. My doctors promised by now I would feel so much better and so happy I had my surgery.

Ok. I DO feel much better than I did laying like a dying dog either on my couch or in a hospital bed.

BUT. I do not feel happy YET about having it done.

Yes it shaved off 63 whopping lbs from my body. That part is sometimes unbelievable to me. I could not have done that on WW. At least I don't think.

But when you experience something traumatic in your life..it takes a long time to come to terms with it and accept what happened to you and move on.

My c-section with Mila was the worst surgery out of the other c-sections. I was traumatized by what I went through with delivering her. Let's just say I am so happy my tubes are tied!! Heck I would take delivering my almost 10 lb Eric without drugs again!

But it took me awhile to get over it. Thank God I am not having anymore babies but if I ever had to have a spinal done...whoa! You better knock me out.

Back to weight loss.

I am grateful I was given the chance to get healthy and lose this weight. I am grateful I made it out of surgery okay. I am grateful for my supportive family and friends. Especially Troy.

I am grateful that I can eat and drink without being fed through a PICC line. The fact that I can get in enough calories to stay off of the line is great.



Grateful my double chin is long gone.

Not grateful for the hell I went through. Finally put ME first and I endured the most horrific thing I have ever been through.

So no Doc. Not quite ecstatic about what you did to me.

But I hope that I will one day.
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xo